Signs, signs, everywhere a sign...

Ok I don't have 17 reasons why I should embark on this wild and crazy thing, it's not that wild...I'm not running away and dying my hair and getting a boob job crazy. But it's something I've never done and want to do pretty badly (this week anyway).
I've got a little under 2 months to prepare and don't know if I'll be ready. No I'm not gonna say what it is, until I am for sure going to do it. It takes training and commitment, we all know I lack a little in those lol, but in the end would be a big accomplishment on a little scale..make sense? Anyway, I recently took on a new responsibility. I will now be watching 2 more children, one goes to pre-k so that would leave me roughly 3 hrs to train while keeping the baby. So I was beginning to doubt if I would be ready or not. Which is questionable, but I was doubting my ability and the fact that with the baby I was wondering how to do it, without buying extra stuff that I won't use again.

Back to the point...after I dropped the kiddos off this morning, on a whim I decided to drive through the neighborhood and see what people were throwing out....YES I am a junker (love it) And low and behold...exactly what I need was right there in the trash! I couldn't believe it! So call it a God moment or whatever you may, but it was total confirmation for me. So this little journey is about to get rockin! RECIA here I come lol!

How?

I started this in reality as a chance, grasp, effort to find myself. To figure out all the things that at some point I knew, realized and loved about myself but in the effort of life forgot. You may ask how exactly does someone forget about herself? Simply put...become a wife and mother. Then the things that defined you and made you who you are slowly slip away. It doesn't happen over night or even intentionally, and unless you are one of the lucky ones who really knew who you were before your journey began it happens none the less.

The past few years have brought about many changes for my family, another state, another base, another move, another life. Our family stands on the brink of my husband's dream and ready for another very welcome, very deserved and possibly one of the best changes ever fathomed by our little clan. As always the lifestyle is what it is, I am excited, but also a little lost in the shuffle so to speak. Again I'm left asking what about me? And knowing that only I can answer that question. I can not hide my pride when it comes to my family and our accomplishments, I know that none of us would be where we are if it were not for the whole. But I look around and wonder if thus far I have done anything about anything that I saw for myself.

But how do you rewind time and go back 10 years to figure out where you saw yourself? When you (yourself) can't even remember your dreams? My hubby constantly encourages me to chase my dreams and I constantly remind him that you can't chase what you don't see.I live a life where I continually rely on myself and other women like myself, but at times we all seem to be stuck in the middle, at the point that we're just waiting till the next move, or deployment, or school to find ourselves. To find the woman that we knew we'd be, the one we all wanted to grow up and become. and wonder if we already are? Are we, Am I, Are you? Have I become all that I WANTED? The wonderful loving wife, the giving adoring mother, the sister and daughter with strained ties, the part-time go getter. Is this what I wanted or is there a shiny star out there waiting for me to take hold and fly with?If I am the woman I was destined to become...I want to know..... How did I miss her entrance and How can I block her exit? Because I HAVE to find HER.

Just my thoughts

This is my first entry in my rants & raves, well not really, I've done a few on other websites, but I guess really I'll clue you in on my thoughts.

A friend of mine that I grew up with is also a blogger. A faithful Blogger. I lost touch with her years ago, I've moved alot, but I stumbled upon her page today. It was mesmerizing. I kid you not I read through every post that she has made in the last 3 years. I couldn't stop reading. It was like an inside track into all the struggles, triumphs and steps of her life since she began blogging. It prompted me, I'm not sure why, to try and do the same.

For the most part my life is "normal". A husband, 2 kids, 3 dogs, American standard, I would assume. I on a daily basis don't face the feats that so many others do, and I am thankful for that, but I face life none the less. So if you are looking for lighthearted witty posts of a Kentucky girl, her enlisted and often deployed hubby, and 2 very creative shenanigan masters known as my boys, then this in essence is the right place. Because this is my life.